Am I Complicated?

I read through people blogs, and some of their posting were quite good. Neat and systematically I enjoy reading it like the step-by-step method. Is it because I'm not good in literature or physically not born with it? Or, I question myself too much where I'm not suppose to ask so much question and make it other people confused with myself? (Whereby, I did ask a lot of question already) Or maybe I'm a technical person? Urgh. My better half often ask me to be 'ayu²' kind of thing, and I guess I disappoints him several times with my roaring laugh. I laugh worse than a monkey, better than a pig but I never felt I laugh in good manner. Other thing, I walk like a green monster with a nice butt. How am I going to walk like a cat with a body like a giant ogre? NO way. Sigh. I need therapy right now. Sauna? SPA? Free stuff? Thank you?