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Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Tragedi Oktober - Not The Song

Finally, I have time to blog about my October. AT LEAST. Fiew~. It was a very long and short month for me. Despite of too much paper works on my table, there are few emails to read and need to reply and a lot of things to catch up. For those who just about to know me, I'm a freelance photographer, not means that I'm free to photograph you, but I'm not a full time photographer. I have my day job, 5 days a week and it is not related to any of photography line. My job are something to with logistics, yes, you hear me right, I'm an IT graduated and working in a logistics firm and doing photography as my part time job.

Oktoberfest and halloween are related, because both of them fall under the same month. However, I don't feel like enjoying the feast or any horror stuff except Al-Hijab movie was totally awesome. Good job for a Malaysian movie. Salute! Time is gold, see what I have done this month.

1st October 2011
Waking up at Maureen's house at Petagas, helping them packing up things and household as they moving out from the house the next day. Went to see Merl in the afternoon and visited their land in Babagon. My first time meeting his parent after a few years knowing each other. I had so much fun showering myself with the coldness of the water from Babagon River. Feel like heaven on a summer day.

Babagon River


2nd October 2011
Went to Damai to hand over the photo dvd to Steffie and had breakfast with Merl and then prepare myself for a wedding shooting at Rasa Ria Resort. It was a rush hour. Congratulations to Adeline & Edward and thanks to Frisco for the call about the photo shooting.

Edward & Adeline


3rd October 2011
Wake up early in the morning and found that my secret room floor has a crack on it. Worst, my house warranty has over. JUST IN TIME. Damn. Another story, mom called and told me to change the front tyre, worn out and seriously need attention. Whose attention? Me? No! It's money honey. Owh well, money come and go, that's why my love is a money proof, I don't love a person because of their money. *Tiada Kaitan* In the same time, my youngest brother is sick and I had to bring him to the clinic for treatment before head to the office. After work, we were supposed to watch The Abduction, but I received a called that Merl's was admited. So, the plan was cancelled and we head to visit him at SMC after took our dinner at Upperstar that night. I almost forget, I received my subway sandwich from Sue as well that night. Thank u darling Sue!

4th October 2011
Just ordinary day, had my breakfast in the office, lunch at Laut Garden Cafe and had my Rainbow Paddle Pop ice cream where I tweeted Ivonne after open it. LOL. Dinner at TJ, Tuaran. Had Mee Goreng Tuaran and Hinava. Drooling~!

5th October 2011
Nasi kuning for breakfast, McD GCB double for lunch and cook for dinner at night. Then after dinner, went to 1Borneo and meet Maureen and siblings to watch The Abduction which we decided to watch the Fright Night at first. After that, met Sebastian & Carey at Starbucks for supper up to midnight and went home after that.

6th October 2011
Kinder Bueno has a new flavour, coated with white chocolate and taste like rainbow because I don't know how to describe it. No lunch. Dinner at home only. Watch Damping Malam with Kibot. YAY!

7th October 2011
No breakfast. Too many things need to do. Had McD again for lunch before attending our sport club meeting at Karamunsing. After meeting, went to 1Borneo and wait for the cool sibling. While waiting, I had a glass of Green Frappucino and charge my phone. Our plan was to watch Al-Hijab. We had KFC before the movie. For the first time, I feel the movie. Goosebump a bit.

8th October 2011
I'm supposed to Balik Kampung the night before, but since mummy also didn't balik, tak jadi lagi me balik kampung. Last minute, I joined Azmier and the gang to explore Sub Stesen Sayap which go through Kota Belud route. Had our breakfast at Restauran Mee Tuaran, drop at Azmier's friend house and head to our destination. This was my first time watching the highest waterfall in my life and get at least one lich on my feet. ;) Imagine, we had to walk about 870m to the waterfall and we only fill our stomach with mee tuaran. After get out from the place, it was already late noon, we drop at one of the restaurant near Petronas and had our lunch at 4pm. Not enough of the tiredness, we come up with a crazy thought of going for movie again, and I manage to bring my brother with us. What was the movie again? Owh! The Three Muskeeters. Not bad.

Sub Stesen Sayap


9th October 2011
Plan to pray at Tuaran in the morning, but ended went to St Simon at 5pm mass with Ivonne. Our plan with Sabas and Igy to watch Nasi LEmak 2.0 that night also cancelled due to 'jejak kasih' session at Upperstar without any intention of doing so. In the other words, it is more like reunion dinner. From a single table to three table joined together.

10th October 2011
It was hot sunny day and I feel blessed with a can of coke with lemon in the morning. And received a call from the main office that a package is waiting for me. Without second thought, I wend and took it. There you go, my nano ipod has arrived. Pink and pretty to me. Yay! I seldom use the word pretty. But the best part was, after work, I went to Maureen's house and pigi minta puji bermake up tangah malam. LOL. Reach home then wash my face. Sayang o kan?

11th October 2011
Usual day, breakfast but no lunch. After work went to Megalong Cineplex to watch Nasi Lemak 2.0, at last. Another successful malaysian movie, big applause to Nam Wee for a very good storyline! After movie, we had our supper at Damai, had my pork mee soup, my favourite yo~ and enjoy chipping the rojak buah with them. I'm without food is like ponds without water. :p

12th October 2011
Training day for our new comer. Bring the ladies to secret recipe for lunch and bought Philipps' Field Guide To The Birds Of Borneo. 2nd Edition. End of the story for that day. I was busy browsing the book the whole night.

13th October 2011
Second day of training day for our new comer. Had my lunch at McD, and rest at home after work.

14th October 2011
Last day training for our new comer. Bring the ladies to Dome for lunch. The other team has arrived Sandakan in the afternoon and my mind couldn't wait to get out from the office and packing my stuff and catch my flight. Mom send me to the airport that afternoon and reach Sandakan for the Borneo Birds Festival around 9.30, delay due to the bad weather. Sampai ja SAndakan, terus pegi makan, and went to SJR and sleep.

15th October 2011
Wake up with stomach in pain, feel dizzy and vomitting. Head spinning and I almost faint. Thank God, the rest has been very supportive and help me to get some help from the pharmacy. Gastrik menyerang dan batuk kering jo. It waS terrible, tapi sempat lagi dorang ni tease kat aku waktu aku muntah kat depan kedai makan. That moment, I really cannot tahan already, sorry but I had to force Wendell to stop and get out from the car and there you go, disgusting morning. It was hard to consume any food that time. I'm so glad, the medicine works, and around 1pm, I can go for a jungle treking for bird watching and get a video of the giant flying squirrel. So happy and joy! And had a great night listening to Ben Duncan's story and the fish taste good too!

16th October 2011
Last day of the Borneo Birds Festival 2011, less bird we found that day, but the result of the photo competition was remarkable. Congratulations to all winners and I hope I will be joining the context by next year, wait for my digiscope to arrived first. :p And thanks to Cede Prudente for the dinner at SJR that night. Not to forget the lunch we took at Sim Sim with the ladies before they left Sandakan.

BBF


17th October 2011
Back to KK, drop at Ranau for durian and had dinner at Tuaran at night. I was too tired and unable to remember what happen that day.

18th October 2011
Sick leave. Went to clinic in the morning due to stomach pain and my cough. Went home and rest but after 4pm, my head start to explode like a timing bomb. Crying in pain and thank God I was force to go to the clinic again. This time, the doctor also shock and give me another day leave due to high blood. 147/117. I didn't feel like I had high blood, but more into depression. And it was the 3rd year of dad left us. 18th was the date he left us. Mom text me to inform that they have a rosary prayer for dad in Telipok Ria that night. Send me to Telipok Ria and then I stay there for a night.

19th October 2011
Sleep and rest. I didn't get used to rest and sleep. I feel really bad about it. Although I enjoy watching astro channel, but if my car was there at the point of time, I would rather drive and go home. With all the suffered time, around 7pm, I've been picked up and send up to my house, thank God for the guardian angel you gave to me. Reach home, I clean the house and let myself sweating, and then go to sleep.

20th October 2011
Working alone. My colleague was on leave. Not much. Too weak and try to survive. Had Mi Segera Ayam Kampung. LOL. Tapi sempat juga lepak at Ah Yong Restaurant after work.

21th October 2011
Feels better and ready to capture my best friend wedding at night. Congratulations to Akmal & Suhaila!

Sue & Akmal


22th October 2011
Persandingan di antara Akmal dan Suhaila. Do I need to elaborate more? Balik kg. tampulan malam tu, and almost finish praying. Hee. Nasib sempat juga. Yang saya amat terkejut, my cat is so damn big! I thought he is too old to grow?? My goodness! They say, tuan dia membesar, tu kucing pun ikut membesar.. Adeii..

Sue & Akmal

23th October 2011
Another huge changes, my kampung soon will have a new church replacing the old one. Can't wait for the opening ceremony. Feel like years didn't come back. :D I manage to clean up my room and seriously, I'm looking forward to go back again. I have a few project in mind including painting. :D Starting a new life is fun!

24th October 2011
Back to work. Normal la. Nothing much.

25th October 2011
Working alone, colleague cover another colleague.

26th October 2011
Happy deepavali!! ;)

*I know, my grammar are really bad. Ampun.

Monday, October 24, 2011

The Bridesmaid : Locally Made from Sabah

Who ever expect I shot a bridesmaid shots at these place? A few of my friends asked where the hell is this place. This place is the area where the para gliders take off. Maybe not so many people know that Sabah have para gliding area like this. And yes, I'm the first one and the lucky bridesmaid shots their happy photos here. Enjoy the laughter and congrats to Sue Thien on her recent wedding too! ;)

p/s: There are few words I would love to say but I just let the photo explained. ;)



The Bridesmaid

Queen of the day.

joy of the bridesmaid

1 has found his Mr Right

Be Happy

Saturday, October 22, 2011

Portraiture: Patrick

Mostly our local photographer capture a female model and to be frank, I prefer male model for my journal. I have seen too many women and it's time for us to show our talented male model. Seriously, I just talking craps. Believe in Green.

Patrick

Patrick

Thursday, October 6, 2011

Rest In Peace - Steve Jobs (1955 - 2011)

Everybody were talking about the launching of iPhone 4s in the tweet line yesterday and another shocking story in the front line news today as Steve Jobs, the co-founder of Apple has passed away. Condolences and prayer for him, Jobs leaves behind his wife, 4 childrens, 2 sisters, 49,000 Apple employees and millions of his followers and not forgetting those who are working with his invention. He has been produced something that improves technology not only communication, but music, photography, in short, he made human life easier! Condolences to the families, and to Jobs, all your guidance, all your creation will remain in our heart forever. Sadly be missed. God bless.


RIP Steve Jobs


Taken from Apple front page

Google

Even Google place his name on the front page today.

One of my favourite quote from him that reflect my vision of life:



Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something - your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life. ~Steve Jobs



Dedicate to Steve Jobs, we know you like The Beatles, and in my life, I love you more..

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Ku nyanyikan rinduku padamu...

I was stumble upon Richado Tawith's YouTube's channel and found his single called "Lagu Rindu" feat Ridah, one of our best local talented soul singer. When I heard this song, it straight remind me of my late dad, this month is the month we lost him and I wish to meet him again in the after life. Daddy, kami sayang daddy, biar betapa rendah hati daddy jaga kami dulu, susah senang sama sama tanggung, tapi sya tidak pernah lupa, tangan daddy tidak pernah sampai di badan kami bila kami buat salah, dan mungkin itulah sebab bila daddy marah, biarpun tidak tinggi suara, air mata terus mengalir sebab terus terasa di dalam hati. Biarpun masa yang ada cuma singkat, sya bersyukur sebab jadi anak daddy, sya minta maaf sebab byk benda dalam dunia ni sya tidak dapat ikut sampai tahap menjatuhkan nama baik keluarga, tapi daddy lebih tahu dengan setiap keputusan yang sya ambil dan daddy lebih tau semua. Mamy, Abang, Oyo, semua sihat, Nenek, Anty, Angkol pun sihat juga. Harap daddy happy disana. Saya Rindu.... :(






Lagu Rindu - Richado feat Ridah

Padamu Tuhan ku berserah
Andai takdirku bersamanya
Walaupun lemah tiada kuasa
Akan ku sayangi dirimu

*
Biar kau tahu rasa ini
Dingin di dalam lagu

**
Ku nyanyikan rinduku padamu
Biarpun entah kapankan bersama
Ku sampaikan hangatnya cintaku
Agar kau sentiasa tahu ku sayang padamu

Andai tiada kau dan aku
Andai tiada bulan bintang
Akan ku kenali melodi cinta ini
Biar onak badai melanda
Biar ribut taufan menjelma
Akan ku kenangi rasa indah ini

repeat * and ** x2

Padamu Tuhan ku berserah
Andai takdirku bersamanya

Thursday, September 29, 2011

Bernard & Catherine Wedding

Another hectic day, there are few lesson to be learn while doing all the madness of busy task. Look for another assistant. Teamwork is important! After the 3rd September, there was no rest for me, 4th September, I had to drive again back to Tenghilan for my cousin wedding meeting, discuss and assign every part of the wedding requirement, I'm giving my best and try to make the wedding almost perfect. I keep forgetting things and thank God there are few parts been saved by the bell. Bernard & Catherine is now called husband and wife. Congratulation on their wedding 10th September 2011, it was the best wedding ever where all my family gathering and dance together at the dance floor. No one know who I felt that day and I felt I'm blessed. Thank you God. Daddy and Bapa Tua, we missed you.


Wedding Day
The Church
Pray
Kiss the bride
Cake Cutting
Yam Seng

Climbing Down & Harold & Junko Wedding

Normally, after Mount Kinabalu climb, they will go home, clean up and get rest. Well, this time I made a record for myself, after a suffering climbing down from the mountain, all my nails were injured, I still manage to drive back to KK, send my brother up to Telipok Ria (around 5pm), send his friend to University Apartment and then send the video trailer to Katama reception which held at KDCA, Penampang on 3rd September 2011. After hand over the memory card to Sebastian, I drive back again to Sepangar @ my home (around 6pm), clean up and then drive head to STAR (reach there around 7.30pm already, sorry I'm late), for Harold and Junko's wedding. Thank God I'm still alive. Most of them were shocked but yes, I did attend Harold & Junko's Wedding. Congratulations to both of u! 


Harold & Junko 
 The reception

  Dinner

Our Table that night

   Toasting
Toasting time


  Me & Dani
I'm with Mr Dani ;) 


  Siopon
The Murut Tradition
 
  The injured nails

The Injured Nails - This is after 3 weeks result

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

3 Things To Prepare Before Climbing The Mount of Kinabalu


Who thought I can climb up to the peak of Mount Kinabalu again after 7 years! My first climb was in 2004, I was with my friend that time and still young and reckless. My first experience was different than my second climb. Why? In 2004, we are using Timpohon trail which only 6km to Laban Rata, and this time was the Mesilau trail which have additional of 2km more than Timpohon trail. Again, my weight was 15kg more than my first climb. I remind myself, I won't force myself up to the top if I can't. But what actually made me up to the top? The story that I will bring today. If I didn't make myself up to the top, the story will be different and u will never know what't it like to be on top again. Since I have experience the toughnest of climbing and crawling up to the peak, I will share some tips for those who are planning to climb the Mount Kinabalu.

Things you must prepare before the climb date:
1) Do not climb Mt. Kinabalu without physical preparation - Get Fit at least a month before climbing.
2) Bring as light as possible, the higher you go, the heavier it is. I mean, your stuff.
3) If you are a photographer, please decide what would you shoot in order to minimize which lens that you should bring. I brought my 18-200mm lens so more flexible for me.

Special tips for first time climber:

1) Make sure all the booking, transportation up to National Park or Mesilau Nature Park have been confirmed to avoid last minute dissappoinment. Always double confirmed.
2) Check your itinerary on that day, never missed a line. From the point you leave and up to your arrival.
3) Be early! This is important, to avoid rain, misty, and dark weather, you must get ready as early 6-8am, around 8am, you should start walking through Timpohon or Mesilau trail already, not from your house.
4) Always bring your wind proof jacket or warm suit and a good shoes.
5) For Timpohon & Mesilau trail, wear shorts, and cotton shirt is okay, as the temperature not as cold as up there, suggest to wear your sweater or wind proof jacket 2km before Laban Rata.
6) Normally, the program would be, Day 1, 8am-5pm walking up through Timpohon or Mesilau Trail up to Laban Rata, Day 2, 2am - 5.30am up to the Low's Peak of Mount Kinabalu. So, bring your headlight or torchlight at least.
7) When going down from the mountain, do not push hard on your toes, you will ended badly injured or worst case, unable to walk at all.
8) Google for more information
9) PRAY!





Mesilau Nature Resort
Head to register myself..
  Group
Part of the group, 10 man, 1 girl which is myself. LOL.

  Waterfall 
So refreshing..

  Mesilau Trail 
Worth the walk, although Mesilau Trail is further than Timpohon trail..


  Pienon
See the sign?
  Sunlight
It was cold and I just put my camera on the rock and shoot..
  I did it again
I have a story that I have climb the mountain twice.. :D 

 P/s: For those who will be climbing soon, good luck! Bring home inspiring stories!

Thursday, September 22, 2011

A Day With PixeLayer & Friends Vol. 2

pixelayerouting

Everybody is asking, when will the outing will be held again? Sorry to make you all waiting and sorry for this short announcement too! This will be the second official Pixelayer outing with friends to promote friendship and to help each other. Please share this excited day out with Pixelayer and Friends.

We would like to invite all of you no matter DSLR user or compact user, videographers or painters, and good news to modelling enthusiast who want to improve their poses. Feel the excitement and register with us by tomorrow for us to arrange with the meals & beverages. Since there is a limitation on the participation, we need your co-operation to bank in your RM30 to us before or on the dateline to book yourself in this event. Kindly refer below details for your reference. 

When: 24 September 2011 (Saturday)
Where: Kota Belud, Sabah, East Malaysia.
Time: 0800 - 1830 hrs.
Fees: RM30 only

Agenda: Open photography, from macro to portrait, street to urban, vivid to black and white.
Transportation: Not provided 

Tentative Program: 
08:00 am: Registration & Light refreshment provided (Meeting point: Dewan Masyarakat, Tuaran)
08:05 am: Safety briefing & welcoming speech from Pixelayer Team
08:15 am: Grouping & ice breaking session
08:30 am: Photo hunting begin after photo group taken - Drive to Kota Belud - Please be safe on the road! 
10:00 am: Stop at Tenghilan for Street photoshoot
11:00 am: Lunch (Meeting point: Mee Sup KB, Next to Dewan Masyarakat, Kota Belud)
01:30 pm: Photo hunting begin after group photo
03:00 pm: Meeting at Dewan Masyarakat, Kota Belud 
03:30 pm: Heading to Taginambur Town. 
04:30 pm: Heading to Tamparuli Town. 
05:30 pm: Group Photo
06:30 pm: Until we meet again

Thank you for all the support upon us and Pixelayer couldn't have made it without you. If you are interested, please send your details as below to pixelayer@yahoo.com or you may drop us a message if you are not clear about the event. Don’t worry all your details will be safe with us. We hate spammers too!

Copy & send us your details as per below at pixelayer@yahoo.com and we will advise you the account number in order for you to bank in RM30 and book your name in. 

Name: 
Address/From:
Contact no:
I am a: Photographer/videographer/model/artists/lomographer/etc
Camera brand:

Other concern: In case you want to leave early from the event or other opinion on the event

*Thank you for those who already booked their participation and looking forward for this Saturday event. Extra information that you should know, there will be two participants who fly all the way from Kuala Lumpur particularly for this event to explore part of our beauty of Sabah.


Sunday, September 18, 2011

Katama Ronald Tojimoh & Isabella Morris Abah Wedding

Have you ever imagine of a Papar & Kadazan costume in white? Well, I have seen one and uniquely presented on Katama & Isabella Wedding. Very suitable for wedding gown. All I can say is unique and God bless! They are now pronounced as husband and wife. I have known Katama since Sumandak dot com decade. You might not able to find this site anymore and the founder has closed down for maintenance few years ago. Katama and I has been virtually friends since then. One day, as I open my FB, I received a message from him asking how we go about pre-wedding and other packages on our business. While I explain, he told me that it is him who are wishing to take us as their photographer. We (Pixelayer.net) did their pre wedding and then their wedding. Thank you for the trust and here are some shots of their wedding mass at St. Mary Limbahau.
Katama & Isabella Katama & Isabella Katama & Isabella Katama & Isabella Katama & Isabella Katama & Isabella
Katama & Isabella
Katama & Isabella Katama & Isabella Again, Congratulation Katama & Isabella ;)

Monday, September 12, 2011

Go Away

Seriously, I don't like spammers (those I highlighted in Red), I have to remove the shout box, just drop a comment in the future. Sorry for the inconvenience caused.



I don't like spammer

Thursday, September 1, 2011

As Raya Go On

Another Raya visit made, I went to Papar to visit Shasha's house and then to Faizal's house, where my understanding was these two are cousins. I get up in the morning and sleep back a few times until I get tired of sleeping (though I was not tired to lay on the bed at all) then get my chores done. At 3pm, after clean up and dressed up, I drive myself heading to Papar, the road was no jammed except the road near Giant, Papar. People still busy buying groceries for their open house I guess. Without drop anywhere, I straight went to Shasha's house and enjoy the food. Bloody hungry and missing her so much. I can't remember when was the last time we meet, 2008? Maybe, I can't recall. Later that, we went to Faizal's house, Alus was there too. She was way slim down, but still gorgeous and even younger look. Again, thank you for the invitation and more blessing upon you all. ;)



Raya Kedua
Top: Photo of Shasha and I, bottom right: Faizal's Niece hugging Alus, Bottom left: Faizal's Nephew with his uncle

*p/s: Due to some emergency case, I didn't manage to go Isabella house just now.. I will cover her wedding reception on photography tomorrow... Have a good rest and..Good night. ;)

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Raya Means Friend

Good day everyone, how was your first day of your Raya Eid ul-Fitr day? In Malaysia, we simply call it, Hari Raya Puasa or Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Do you know what is Raya means in the first place, originate from Israel word, it means Friend. While Eid means celebration or festivity, Fitr means breaking of the fast or month of Ramadhan. In my words, Hari Raya Aidilfitri generates a meaning of a day for celebration after one month fasting with friend. Friend is everything, but always remember your root before your friend. That is God + Family = Friend. I hope you all enjoy your Raya as I do. Thank you for all the invitations and I hope I manage to go all the invitations for tomorrow. For those I'm unable to visit, please accept my apology. Thank you and take care. *Hei,I'm improving right? Blogging as much as I can*

Dunkin Donut
Have you ever saw this tagline? Yes, it is from Dunkin Donuts store in KKIA, Terminal 1, near Gate A10, I was there waiting for my flight to Labuan last Sunday, it's a huge store, but it's closed. Then I took the tag line photos and it was look nice to me and below is the teaser for Raya. ;)

Selamat Hari Raya

Thanks to Sue for the invitation, and to Sebastian & Carey, thank you for joining and bring me to Natasha's house at Sembulan again. Thank you very much. ;)

Raya

Monday, August 29, 2011

Sleepless Night

The time shows 3.15am in the morning, and I am here alone in this room. There is something bother my mind recently, it's very complicated and I somehow could not take it no more. Major issue is my relationship, respect from my family, and God. It is very personal to me to say it out here, but whoever who know the story; I really hope it ends well and peacefully. Some say, I am in the age of settle down and should step into the world of commitment. First of all, I am very sorry for all the memories that I have ruined and I wish I have a better vision of what my future going to be. I don't want to end crying every hour and depressed with all that fall onto me. I am sick of emotional abuse.

In life, we have different of stories, several of experience and similar understanding of how to survive. However, every people have diverse of dreams and vision. I believe that everything happen for a reason. Like my stories from the past, I never thought that my beloved dad will leave me like this, leaving me alone and I realized that up to today I still can’t accept it although I promise to strong about this. People who understand me, they feel about it, people who don’t, they will say that I seek sympathy only. Take my words; you will never be yourself today if not because of your parent. My father is still young when he left us, I just learn to be an adult, manage to get a dream apartment, get my car license and then he left us without any message. You know like someone who can’t swim lose his life jacket?

To stay alive, the person only has two options, to keep floating or die. Along the way, while you struggle to swim, there will be more obstacles coming like strong waves, rocks, jellyfish or good thing like an island to keep you rest for a while. When u get into the island, u jump into happiness and you feel that might the last destination and you may live happily ever after. Unfortunately, the island unable to supply you car to move around, and other critical equipment that you really need and you start missing home again. In my case, I choose to leave the island and hope brighter future at home. However, all who waiting me at home expect me to bring the island together. When I refuse to, it’s me who being selfish. Island people always back me up, but no one from my home is happy with me. How I wish I could seek forgiveness and live normally again.

In time like this, only one person who I can talk to, understand what I feel and consider what to do, but he is not here anymore, impossible for me to get his help or seek therapy from him. Dady, kalaulah daddy masih hidup, mesti daddy tidak kasi biar sya begini. Apa pun dosa sya sma daddy dulu, tolonglah kasi maaf sya, sya mau hidup macam daddy masih hidup. Sya harap dpt jumpa daddy cepat. Sya sayang daddy..............sya rindu...........

I will stay strong.. Hopefully..

Saturday, August 27, 2011

All Together Now

Before I get busy, I should take the opportunity to wish you all a happy raya, be safe to those who balik kampung, the rest who celebrating the Raya, don't eat to much up to the point your stomach blow out, remember those who are can't celebrate it, like the hunger, give them prayer so they may celebrate Raya like us in the future or bring some luck to those who need it. Thank you for always supporting Girllyen dot com and I hope I manage to update this blog more often. God Bless and always think safety. ;)

Selamat Hari Raya ;)